I got a letter from Debbie in the mail last Monday evening, and she wrote it when the girls were in Spain, and she sounded like she was really stressed out with all the stuff she had to do and take care of while the girls were gone and you were getting ready for your homeschool presentation, but she’s a really good girl. She doesn’t get stressed out or anxious easily, and she can make herself happy and perky all the time, even when she doesn’t feel like it, so when she does get anxiety and stress it’s pretty serious. (I’m trying not to tell myself its the same way with me, but I know it is.) I just need to think about her all the time and then I’ll be good.
Haha! Gid and Jace are CLASSIC. Man, I miss those little guys. When we got to the mission office a few minutes ago, our ward mission leader’s wife was here with one of her grandsons named Heber who is four years old, and I got so excited and almost started crying because it’s been so long since I’ve been able to mess around with a little kid.
How is Jers doing anyway? I hope he has a good time at college. Has Dane Maher finished already? Has it been two years? It doesn’t seem like that long.
The story you told me about when you almost crashed is so scary. I pray so hard every day that all my family will be blessed with the attendance of the angels to protect and guide them, and now I know that my prayers are being heard. It seems like there have been so many accidents and close calls since I left, where lots of people could have really gotten hurt. It makes me so scared that something is going to happen and it’s not going to turn out okay. But the Lord is protecting you all for sure, and it’s not because of me, it’s because the whole family is doing their best and being obedient. But it makes what President Packer said more valid and relevant, for all of us, because they help all of you in everything you do, and I know that I have angels with me all the time, because I can feel them, and because none of what I do should be working out with my meager little efforts, but somehow it does.
Side note: Montse narrowly missed a head on collision this week. She was in a little Chevy Cavalier when a big Dodge pick-up decided to try and pass a semi coming the other way. Montse was able to slow down and pull off the road faster than should have been possible without rolling over. There was an SUV behind Montse and they both had their horns blaring and were pulled off the road when the truck squeezed between them and the semi on their lane. Scary! But definitely a miracle. Here’s the quote from Pres. Packer.
Angels attend the rank and file of the Church. . . .
Who would dare to say that angels do not now attend the rank and file of the Church who—
answer the calls to the mission fields,
teach the classes,
pay their tithes and offerings,
seek for the records of their forebears,
work in the temples,
raise their children in faith,
and have brought this work through 150 years?
We had a mission-wide fast this past Sunday. President Leppard wanted us all to fast for new investigators who have been prepared, and who are ready to be put on baptisimal dates, baptized, and converted. So we started fasting Saturday afternoon, because our dinner appointment was for 2:00 on Sunday. But I feel like it is really going to help now. I feel like the Lord has heard out prayers and observed our sacrifice, and that He’s ready to bless us with what we need, bring the elect out of obscurity, give us success, and grant us what we need to move His work forward faster. I think we’re going to start having a lot of miracles soon, I can just feel it.
We moved to Harborne yesterday, so it takes us a while on the train to get back here. We have to train back to Wylde Green every morning, and then train back to Harborne every night to sleep. The apartment there is really nice, but it’s on the ground floor, so it’s cold. I think we figured out how to put the heat up though. Except, it was elders that lived in it before, and they left a bunch of food in the fridge, and the Zone Leaders never cleaned it out, so we had to get rid of all their food from last transfer. Gross. But they did leave us a bunch of canned goods and frozen vegetables, and nice, unopened candy and m&ms and stuff.
I saw a rainbow this week too!
I’ve listened to Tragedy or Destiny a couple of times since I’ve been here (Mom put all the classic speeches on her iPod before she gave it to me), and I REALLY like it. I think it might be one of my favorites as well. I think that quote is a good one, and I’m going to use it this week. One of the most frequent questions I get from investigators or people on the streets is something like, “If there’s a God, why is the world such a terrible place?” “Why does God let little children in Africa starve if He really does exist?” “If God really did exist, He would let people suffer, and that proves that He doesn’t exist, because there is so much suffering and evil in the world today.” And I try to explain to them about agency, but for some reason it never comes out right, and it just makes them angry and argumentative. But President Kimball sure knows how to say it.
I don’t know how on earth you knew to send me that bit from the addiction recovery program this week, but it was exactly what I needed. (actually yes, I do know. It’s because you’re my dad and even from an ocean and almost a continent away, God still tells you what I need.) I’ve been feeling very depressed and discouraged and down lately, and I don’t know why. I just get very worried and scared about everything, and it makes me physically and mentally tired all of the time worrying about the next day, or the next hour, and what I’m going to do in that space of time. I guess I’m just worried to death about wasting time, and it’s made me very distressed and gloomy-feeling, and then it makes me feel homesick again. But what it says about trusting and obeying God is perfectly true. I feel like if I ask Him, He will help me happily and peacefully accept the things I can’t change, and be totally fine with them. I am trying to have more trust in God’s ability to help me, and then I can come to terms with my current situation, and be happy about it, and it seems to be working already.
It’s finally getting hot here, so it actually feels like summer. Sister Christy is dying all the time, but I’m SO grateful for the heat, because I’ve been freezing cold since I got here, and I would rather be hot than cold (which is the opposite of what I was at home, but whatever.) I hope it’ll stay like this for a couple months more. I hear it’s supposed to be kind of a short winter.
Last Saturday Kevin and Jordi were supposed to come to Walsall to a baptism so that they could see what it was like, but they never showed up, and we called and called, and texted them both, but neither of them would answer, and we were both very discouraged and depressed about it. They were supposed to come to church yesterday as well, but never showed up, and wouldn’t contact us either. I kept thinking that something had happened to them, because they wouldn’t just quit contacting us, because that’s not what they are like. I’d get little thoughts that said ‘They don’t care anymore,’ but I’d have to kick them out, because I knew it wasn’t true. Then Kevin texted us during church and said that the evening of the baptism Jordi hurt his back really badly, so he had to take him to the hospital, and they left their phones wherever they were at, and couldn’t find them until the next day. I was so relieved that they were spiritually okay, but at the same time very annoyed at Satan. It’s quite obvious that both of them are extremely ready to be baptized, if not, the devil wouldn’t be working on them.
I love you lots! I think there was a lot more stuff I was going to tell you but we don’t have as much time today. I pray for you all to be protected, especially with all the stuff that has been happening lately.